And then we found it all caged inside a dream

As I've said many times, I'm quite bad at updating this. I have had an excuse for the last few days though, as i was barely home between Wednesday and Sunday. The highlight of that time was my love's sister's sweet 16.

Aided by a constant supply of Jack and Cokes that were fed to me by none other than my girlfriend's father, I had quite a good time. Over the course of the weekend, I was introduced to much of the family, and all were quite welcoming in their greetings. It made me feel quite accepted, and it's good to know that not only does my girlfriend appreciate me, but she communicates this to her family, which causes them to do so as well.

The semester is at it's midpoint. I've gotten a substantial amount of work done thus far, and I'm planning out the rest as best I can. As stressful as it was to start, I know that as long as I keep pushing through, I'll be just fine and make it to the end without a problem.

I still need to see Saw VI. And re-watch the other five before I do so.

I've been wanting to make salmon salad for weeks and still need to.

My girlfriend is absolutely and unequivocally amazing <3

Oh and I've been listening to a lot of Scar Symmetry lately, and felt that these lyrics bare some significance to my life currently. Kind of how I've moved past things onto bigger and better ones, and looking back and wondering why I didn't do so sooner. The paths may be unknown, but I'm damn sure that they're good.

Now it's time to turn the page we've waited for so long
Waiting for the dawn to come when we control the sun
Now it's time to go beyond, revealing the concealed
Leaving all the things we know to view the paths unknown

Many good things to say....

But not enough time to say them! Busy busy. Hopefully I will update tomorrow night or Tuesday.

Time will not heal, all of your pain. I cannot wait until it all comes crashing...

Wow I'm really bad at updating this lately.

I had a realization about fear yesterday. It is quite difficult for us to understand why were used to be afraid of something once we actually overcome it. At one point, we may cringe even at the thought of something, but once we have conquered that fear, we often cannot understand how we were once afraid. This doesn't apply in all situations, but quite often with fears that are 'grown out of'.

It baffles me how some people set themselves up to get hurt, almost as if they want it to happen. They put themselves in situations that they know (and have openly stated) would be detrimental to them, and yet choose to stay rooted in that situation until it's inevitable fallout. Even when it falls out, they tend to return for more abuse later on. Such self-masochist behavior seems, to me, to be caused by many other underlying issues.

I'm looking forward to this weekend and the next. Party time and Halloween time! Both with my love! <3

Some people will make damn good listeners, but bad psychologists.

The first born narcissist theory is true. Or at least in this case.

The album Shogun gets better and better the more I listen to it.

I enjoy the smell of both freshly cut grass and gasoline, especially in the same day.

Stop writing sex mail if you have a fucking Jesus lanyard.

In the Valley of Cherrys, I consume the Congo

I just finished one of my many papers this semester, and have decided to take a little break before I move on to other work. Which means time to blog.

I have three exciting weekends coming up. This coming weekend is Comic Con, where my inner nerd can run free and I can blow all of my money on useless merchandise. The following weekend, I get to spend time with my love at her sister's sweet 16 and consume lots of fancy food, as well as cake. The weekend after is Halloween, which means mass chaos and shenanigans, as well at the release of Saw VI. Once all of this schoolwork is done, I'm quite sure October with be an enjoyable month.

I'm stumped as to how Cherry Valley makes their sandwiches so damn good.

I made a Twitter recently and I'm quite enjoying it. It's quite convenient to update from my phone, and I find myself doing so when I see or overhear a funny quote or an interesting conversation. I expected it to be quite similar to Facebook, but it's a lot more unique than i previously thought.

Exivious: Jazz fusion progressive metal band. Fucking sweet.

Hiyah!

Finally a Real Entry

Geez it's been a while. Loads of school work. But now that I finally have the time, there's a lot I'd like to say. Hopefully I can remember it all.

The first thing that comes to mind is something I've been lacking lately, sleep. I'm not even going to talk about dreams right now (I think I may have a while ago), but just the concept of sleep itself. Sleep is something I quite enjoy. I keep my room like an icebox year round just so that it feels even warmer under the covers. To immerse yourself in sleep is to detract yourself from the world and let your body (pretty much) shut off. It's such an interesting concept that so many of us enjoy a state that is the closest, non harmful state to death. Even more so since we dislike waking up. You'd think it would be a joy to us to return to the mobile world, but we really do enjoy our detachment.

Recently, the cold weather has really been making it's way into the weather forecast. Although not brutally cold, some days warrant at least a light sweatshirt. I find the cold weather to be quite bittersweet. The cold itself doesn't necessarily bother me, but the winter time itself usually puts me in a somewhat negative mood. The thing that I dislike the most is the fact that it gets darker earlier. I'm not really sure why this bothers me, unless I have some unconscious psychological urge for light (which doesn't sound completely crazy), but it's something that I always notice and wait diligently for it to change at the end of the season.

This may just be me, but have you ever noticed the change in light when a tree in your neighborhood is cut down? You don't notice until it happens, but the sunlight shines through the trees in very particular ways that we come to be familiar with. When the tree is gone, the light shines completely differently. It's something I've always noticed since I was a kid, and realized how we never notice something like that until it changes.

There's several other topics that I've been thinking about, but this is good for now. I'm quite content.

Speaking of being content, I'm more than content with life currently. Happy times. As usually, several little issues, but nothing I can really complain about. The good things are definitely tipping the scale.

I'm really into Porcupine Tree lately.

I made a twitter because I'm tired of Facebook not functioning. Follow me! (down to the valley below. See! Porcupine Tree!)

I've rediscovered the peanut butter and jelly sandwich. Oh and Nutella. Good stuff.

I've Been (In) Absent(ia) Lately.

Curse my busy schedule that keeps me from blogging! I actually have a lot I've been wanting to talk about, but I've been buried under piles of schoolwork. And unfortunately, I'm still going to have to wait. Hopefully tomorrow I'll be able to get on here and empty my brain a bit. Things have been going quite amazingly, but I still have things I wanted to discuss. Soon I hope!

You've Got to Reach a Little More

I'm currently so tired that I am suffering from a loss in motor function. But I haven't updated in a week. Fun things, funny things, happy things, and several slightly sad things.

Do your job. Be productive. Plain and simple. And be mature about it.

Psychoanalyzation is an interesting concept. Quite a conversation starter. Freud aside.

The Belt Parkway and I can be friends, but only during off hours.

New Scar Symmetry was quite disappointing.

New Paramore is quite amazing.

Colder weather. Definitely bittersweet. I'll elaborate on this later.

Wine is interesting.

I'm fond of buttondowns and should wear them more often.

I enjoy conversations about asylums but wish they were able to last longer.

Happy six months of recovery to my love. I know that there are many, many more ahead. :-)

Sleep now.