If There's No One Beside You When Your Soul Embarks...

Never once have I ever overcome a fever in 8 hours before. I got sick yesterday while at school, at around 2pm. I went to the doctor, where i was told that I had a fever, and either the flu, step, or some ambiguous bug. I laid around in a semi-conscious state for several hours, when suddenly, around 10pm, I felt fine. I went to bed, thinking that I was probably just experiencing a good spell. I woke up this morning completely well and devoid of sickness. I'm quite proud of my immune system, and would give it a big high five if it was possible.

I watched the season premier of the new show Flash Forward last night. I'm hooked already. The basic pot is that everyone in the world blacks out for 2 minutes and 17 seconds, and has a vision of what they will be doing 6 months in the future. This sets off a whole string of events that I won't spoil. Go watch it!

School is keeping me busy. It still stresses me, but I feel like I've put everyone in perspective for the rest of the semester. There's no point in wasting energy on freaking out about things. If I have something to get done, I'm going to do it, and that's that.

I have so much new music that I want to listen to. It's quite insane. The fact that I currently don't have an Ipod makes it more difficult, so I'm going to end up having to burn 15 CD's and listen to them in the car. Oh well, minor setback.

I've had a mixture of Your Heart is an Empty Room and I Will Follow You into the Dark by Death Cab stuck in my head for the last 24 hours.

My 8 hours of sickness and my minor stress about school is all I can complain about. Things are good and happiness reigns. Woo!

'There's a time and a place for everything" -some professor guy

Musings on Relationships and Employment

As I've stated in previous entries, feelings of paranoia and stress has always been a commonality for me when starting a relationship. I used to worry myself to no end about the state of the relationship, and would go crazy trying to figure out what my counterpart felt or thought. I am infinitely grateful that this is not currently the case, and I have finally figured out why it is so. I've cited communication as a factor before, but I'd like to introduce two new elements: trust and reciprocation.

Trust is an aspect that has been present in my previous relationships, but always took a decent amount of time to manifest and solidify. Whether it be because of the preceding friendship or just a strong bond of communication, I find that trust was/is very easy to obtain in my current relationship, and I'm quite certain that that goes for both of us.

Reciprocation of feelings and effort is also something that always existed in the past to some degree, but never as much and as early on. Almost always, I was the one putting so much into the relationship, at least at first, and often times later on as well. While I didn't necessarily mind at the time, I have come to realize that full reciprocation is a wonderful thing, and frankly, I shouldn't have settled for half-assed reciprocation in the past. I'm quite glad that I no longer have to.

Switching topics a bit, I really do hate the see other people's relationships fail. Especially in instances where they could have been fixed. Or even more so when the relationship shouldn't have happened in the first place. If something doesn't click, I don't believe it should be forced, no matter how much anyone wants it to. Life is too short to cut your own puzzle pieces. Find one that fits and you'll be much better off. And much happier.

I have a strong desire to find a new job. I've been at Target for two years now, and even working there one day a week is too much for me. I do enjoy (most of) the people who work there, but I cannot stand the environment and the physical appearance of the store. It's too familiar to me. I've seen sections alternate and change many times. I'm coming up on my third Halloween there. I've eaten in bland, grey break room more times that I care to count. I find it odd that I'm still quite dedicated to my work, but I feel infinitely confident that I could be so much more dedicated somewhere else. Now I just have to make the initiative to find that 'somewhere else'.

Wow, it's been a week. School is starting to pick up the pace a bit, and in turn, so is the stress. I was plagued by stress for the majority of the last week, but I am currently quite content. Sometimes I just need a smack in the face to make me wake up and see that these things really are tolerable.

You can find out so much about people just by connecting information about them together. They tell you one thing one day, and another thing a week later, and you can make a connection between the two and learn something new, just by being observant.

I'm always nervous at the start of relationships. Since the first time I've ever been in one, it's a feeling that always hits me right away. Currently though, I am much less stressed out than I've been in the past. I attribute this to strong comunication and legitimate functionality, two things I don't normally start relationships with, but definitely have this time around. Good sign? You bet.

I do my job. I do more than my job. But I'm not going to do your job.

I really want to have a Robin Williams movie marathon at some point soon.

This is the Sound of Settling

I feel like the second week of school has started off much better than the first. Not that the first was all that bad, but I'm much more comfortable in many aspects.

First, and probably the most obvious, I have somewhat of an idea of what the semester is going to be like in terms of the workload. It's going to be a bit tough at times, but I don't envision it being unbearable. I'm happy with my classes for the most part, and nothing seems too difficult. At least not yet. I feel my selection of classes has the potential to teach me quite a bit this semester.

Second of all, I feel like I've made a lot of life progress recently. For one, I've resolidified friendships that had dwindled during the summer, and possibly even helped them progress further. Also, I've worked on crafting and solidifying a relationship that has been going extremely well so far. It's amazing how much stress relief, positivity, and happiness a functional relationship can bring, and for that I am quite grateful.

Even though most of the people reading this won't have any idea what I'm talking about, I feel it necessary to mention that the new Threat Signal (amazing melodic/tech metal band who I've been following for some time now) album leaked, and it just blew me away. Their first album was absolutely amazing, and after going through many line up changes, I didn't think they would be able to top it. Thankfully, I was quite wrong. I downloaded the album about four days ago, and it has yet to be ejected from my car's CD player. Ironically, my two favorite songs on the album are entitled Through My Eyes and Another Source of Light. I find this ironic because I feel like those two phrases are quite prevalent to my life right now.

A certain person needs to make a decision before they hurt someone. Someone who is close to both them and I. Stop being selfish and make up your mind, or else you'll end up with nothing.

As I've restated several times already in previous entries, things are going quite well. Nothing deserves a complaint at the moment, and few things even deserve a declaration of annoyance. Ahh life.

Beginnings

It's official. Sophomore year of college has begun. Now that I'm almost done with my first week, I feel like a have a good idea of how the semester is going to go. Some aspects are definitely going to be tough, but if I keep on top of things, I'm confident that I'll be alright.

I'm currently somewhat stressed. This is normal of me when change comes about. Topics such as school, relationships, and friends, are all things that have changed for me recently, and all in positive ways. But I'm always a bit scared that things are going to fall short. I'm sure this feeling will pass, as it usually does, but I can't say that not a bit shaky. I have large amounts of confidence in all aformentioned issues though, and I will use that to help me through this minor turbulence.